Thursday, November 6
*sigh*
I've been thinking about 'him' a lot lately.....a lot more than usual...and i can't keep it bottled up anymore...i have to let it out!!
I think it's because i haven't seen him in ages....not seeing him for so long is finally getting to me...it's driving me up the wall! Every now and then i'll suddenly think of him, not for long though, just long enough for that twang of sadness...either something will remind me of him, or i'll suddenly remember something we shared together, and i'll be lost in my memories for a moment....
gawd, i hate it when i crush on a guy...it lasts forever! i've been like this since the beginning of the year! it's getting embarrassing! not to mention pathetic..
and of all the people to fall for, why does it have to be HIM?? the one person i can't bear to lose...the one i'd miss the most if i lost him in any way....
but i'm starting to fear i've lost him already...the simple fact that i just don't see him anymore..sometimes i wonder if he thinks of me half as often as i think of him...
maybe this is why i can't seem to be concentrating as much as i should be for next week's exams...
k@ly$hA @ 10:29 PM